Tuesday, October 25, 2011

What brought me to Jakarta?

Standing on the covered balcony to my clients' Screening Room, I watched the much needed rain fall onto the grand driveway below.  It doesn't matter where you are, rain smells the same.  Taking a moment to relax I thought about what brought me to Indonesia.  Was it the Interior Designer who recommended me for the job?  Was it a deep down desire to travel that manifested into an opportunity to work?  Or, am I fulfilling some karma-driven objective from a past life?  As a butterfly flew past my nose I thought perhaps the true reason had to do with the act of giving.
Iden prepping the surface of
 a door before I turn it into wood!  :)

My Patron gave me the opportunity to do work for her.  As well, she and her husband are giving hundreds of Jakartans the same opportunity.  The estate is beautiful and it is because of their vision and the expertise of those they employ that make it so.

I thought about how I then proceeded to pass on their act of giving by teaching my helper, Iden (Eden), and giving him the opportunity to be my apprentice.  In return, he will then be able to give back to my client when I leave by being able to do touch ups and repairs to any of the work we've created.  What a beautiful circle.  And it is through open hearts that this happened.

Upon my arrival, I went directly to the job site.  It was what I wanted to do.  Get the lay of the land, and then go crash at my hotel. As I met everyone, I was introduced to Iden (about 19) and told he would be my helper.  He would get my water, sweep up, possibly paint.  I was surprised and relieved.  I didn't even know the word for water in Indonesian (air - pronounced as "ire").

My first time creating burl-wood,
professionally ©Studio Deeba 2011
Iden soon became my assistant and then became my apprentice.  He showed initiative and interest in what I was doing.  One day, I saw him looking at the way I was moving the stain across the door.  He wasn't  just interested in the "trick" of faux-bouis (wood-graining) but actually in the technique.  Hmmmmmmmm.....

As I worked that day, the wheels started to turn in my head and my heart.  I was learning about the poverty of Jakarta as I worked in this huge estate.  Now some people might want to approach this dichotomy with a sarcastic or judgmental thought, but I saw how my patrons were part of the community's survival.  Everyone helping the next person.

Iden, rolling a coat of sealer onto the door

And so Iden has started a career in decorative painting.  He is most willing to learn and most eager to do a good job.  He "gets it;"  this can be a way for him to earn an income, to provide for himself and a family one day.  I am so happy that this opportunity presented itself and that we could all experience such a wonderful way of giving that comes full circle.  It is a win-win, all the way around!
me in front of my work, mahogany burl-wood doors
©2011 Studio Deeba

Soon the rain stopped, I turned around, brush in-hand, and thought, this is the way life should work and I'm so happy to experience it.  This is why I came to Jakarta!

Wednesday, October 12, 2011

Indah

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"Inda.  Inda," the young girl was touching my hair as her friends gathered around me.  They were so happy and excited to be next to me.  Holding my hands, stroking my arms and touching my hair, pointing at my eyes.


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My Sunday began with a trip to the Museum Wayan (Doll/Puppet Museum) in Jakarta.  My Driver picked me up at 10:00 a.m. and we started our journey trekking through the winding streets from one end of town to the other; quite the drive.  After about an hour, we found the museum and parked.  Ghofir (go-fear) opened my door and the minute my feet touched the ground, I was being watched.
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The large plaza was packed with people trying to cool themselves in the hot sun (96 degrees).  As we made our way around the vendors and their wagons, blankets and items, across the open space to the door of the museum, I was grateful for having a dress on and not the heavy weight of jeans.

Ghofir  was clearing a path for me to walk (every inch of space is occupied) while I thought about what defines Inda.  Looking at all the beautiful dolls and puppets made to represent Indonesia's ancient Javanese, I was moved beyond words.  The delicate features that are fringed with long black lashes and beautiful black hair braided and twined around crowns and combs, batiked (hand-painted lost-wax and dye) clothing with the most intricate of designs.  I was in awe.  These puppets and dolls are made from wood, animal skin and bone.  All hand carved centuries ago.  What appeared to be a paper doll puppet, was actually hand-tooled leather...no lazer cuts here, just pure craftsmanship and attention to detail. Magical, to say the least.


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© 2011 Studio Deeba
©2011 Studio Deeba
Looking at these ancient dolls, I thought of how I have struggled with my physical beauty for the last decade; going from 40 to 50 in a heartbeat while seeing skin move and wrinkles appear where there were none before.  I have wondered what defines beauty.  Inside?  Outside?  I believe both.   Is it attitude and if so, what type?  Is it what the majority doesn't have?  Or is it the best of the majority?  And who defines that? Can mannerisms define a person's beauty?  Sometimes.  Confidence, definitely.  Nothing sexier to me than a man who's comfortable in his own skin.  :)  yum.

I see the beauty of others in even the tiniest ways and yet with myself, well....it's been difficult.  Don't get me wrong, I love me.  I love everything about me.  I just don't see me as I see others.  We're probably all like this, right?  Well, this last year I have been accepting my body's changes as it moves through the aging process.  However, as a single woman in the dating world, it has been daunting as most men from 50 years of age to 60, can go after women half my age and do, successfully!


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A night out on the town in San Diego, I am overlooked frequently.  In Indonesia, I am constantly being told Indah!  Indah!~  


Ha!  What an experience to have as I enter into my fifth decade of life.  I shall never forget this experience as long as I live.  What a wonderful gift!  Okay Universe!  I have spent the last year accepting my physical self as I change, Now I Will Celebrate Myself!  I now believe!  I am Inda!

As we made our way through the museum, I asked one group of girls who so desperately wanted to photograph me, if they would be so kind as to be in a photo for me.  They were thrilled!    What Fun!  And don't you agree?  We truly are, all Indah....even in 96 degrees of ugh!  :)

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Monday, October 3, 2011

Remembering Grandpa Sundeen


When I was a young teenager, my family went "up North" to spend weekends with our family friends, The Franzens, at their parents' cabin / home.  It was so cool.   On a big piece of property, they were situated at the edge of Little Stone Lake, north of Two Harbors and west of Lake Superior.   There was a sauna down by the dock and a bunk house up the hill from the cabin.

The kids (and there were plenty of us) were sent to the bunk house at night and the adults had the cabin.  It was really great.  At that age, to sleep in a different building than my parents was just, "too cool."  The bunk house had an old Victrola record player along with plenty of records.  And it still worked.  Tons of comic books from the 50's and 60's, a pot bellied stove and many bunk beds lining the walls.  The musty smell, combined with wet wool (our mittens and scarves), burning birch logs in the stove and freshly showered kids still comes to mind.

The times up at the cabin were magical, life affirming and life changing...for everyone who came to stay.  One year (I think it was 1974 or '75), we were "snowed in."  The winter's worse storm hit while we were at Grandma and Grandpa Sundeen's, sleeping in the bunk house and dreaming big dreams of adventure, thanks to the comic books.  I remember the snow was banked higher than the windows; we had to dig our way out.  Banks and banks of snow covered the lake.

The only way to civilization, which in that neck of the woods (litteraly), was the country store, an hour or so down the main road (one of which grandpa built) which was a mile or so down the driveway!  So the kids and moms stayed tucked inside and the men took the snowmobiles, two to a sled.  Along the railroad tracks.  They knew these led them to the WhistleStop in Brimson where rations could be purchased and contact made with the outside world.

Later that week, we all got out on the snowmobiles and at one point I remember we stopped along the tracks  (the only place to ride where the snowmobiles wouldn't sink into the powder)  to look at two tall, and I mean tall, wolves sitting with a kill - deer - between them and the black and white birch trees behind them.  They were about 100 yards away...beautiful and eerie...all at the same time.

Eventually roads were cleared and we were on our way home and stopped out on the peninsula of Lake Superior and went over to the Maritime Museum and discovered it had closed and so we began exploring.  There was a motel where all the windows were smashed on the side facing the lake due to the storm.  How bizarre.  We climbed frozen waves that were at least 10 -12 feet high along Lake Superior.  Yeah.  Insane.  Life back then was so complicatedly simple.  My parents and their friends were living life large and we road their coat-tails.  It was great fun for all!

There was another time in the summer when we were all taking turns in the sauna early in the evening, and all the girls decided to dance down by the lake, bare naked in the moonlight.  My mother remembers it well, "You girls were little... and we adults were just sitting in the kitchen talking when we caught a glimpse of you running around outside and it was dark so all we saw were those little white butts running around!"  Wow!  That was fun.  running around after baking in the steam of a wood-burning sauna.  WOW!  What memories.  And these are just highlights.  Not to mention the berry picking with grandma, the quiet moments of playing games or just sitting and drawing (for me).  Stories of Grandpa being caught on the roof because a bear decided to knock down the ladder and squat.  I think this is lore....Something I heard later in my life; stories recanted at my mom's kitchen table!

All great times in my teen years...times of laughter, tears and moments of becoming...becoming a teenager, becoming a young woman...becoming a friend to my mother and her best friend, my second mom, D.J. (Grandpa and Grandma Sundeen's daughter).  Grandpa helped to forge the freeways, highways and bi-ways throughout the northern woods of Minnesota and The Dakotas.  He was quite the maverick for his time.  And Grandma was the quintessential Sweedish mother, wife and grandmother for her time.  :)  Loved her Ginger Snap cookies.  :) yum.  I think Mrs. Franzen made Krumkake Cookies, yum, yum, yum.

Grandma passed away quite a while ago, but just two days ago, Grandpa made his exit.  They truly loved each other.  :)  hmmmmmm.  The word that just keeps coming up in regard to Grandpa is "Gentleman."  And that he was.  I just remember his laugh.  It was always a quiet one but it was full.  A laugh that had meaning...which is in honor of his nordic ways of being.  I also remember the jokes.  A joke book in the john, (ha! haven't used that phrase for ....decades!), jokes at breakfast, jokes during the football games, jokes at dinner....always fun and laughter for all to be had.

Thank you Grandpa!

In memory of Grandpa Milton Sundeen, thank you for sharing your home, bunk house, and laughter with us little rug rats!  You are forever a part of me.

I would like to list two of my favorite poems in memory of our loved ones who leave us for their next way of being:


Afternoon on a Hill
 by Edna St. Vincent Milay


I will be the gladdest thing
   Under the sun!
I will touch a hundred flowers
   And not pick one.

I will look at cliffs and clouds
   With quiet eyes,
Watch the wind bow down the grass,
   And the grass rise.

And when lights begin to show
   Up from the town,
I will mark which must be mine,
   And then start down!

I have always thought this poem was about 

moving from this world to the next, transcending 
the existence of body and into the next way being.  
:)  It's such a dainty little poem, perhaps this one 
would be better, one by Dr. Seuss comes to mind:



“How did it get so late so soon? Its night before its afternoon. 

December is here before its June. 

My goodness how the time has flewn. 

How did it get so late so soon?”


Peace Out, Deeba in Jakarta